i don't understand why i'm still thinking abt this, after all that'd happened. it's really difficult to let go. i wonder if it's because i thought it will last, i thought u've changed. i thought i've done enough, but it wasn't the case. that day, i was devastated. many things ran through my mind.. i learn not to bear grudges, however u disappointed me. because they get u nowhere; only hatred and dejection. i think i did the right thing.
i chose to meet u up. i really wanted to see how u'd react, and to clear things up. i never regretted telling u how i felt and letting u know. i don't really care how the others think also. although it's sth really unpleasant, but i still want a full account of it. to give myself an explanation and to satisfy my curious mind. nothing else.
today's the day i've been looking forward to since last november. cuz that was when i started planning what i should do for u. then, we quarrelled on the 8th dec, coincidentally which i've never told u, is her b'day. i tried to make up to u. i'm really sry. really really really sry. i want to be happy again. the times when everything's so naive and sweet, just us, devoid of unhappiness and mistrust.
